Empty Mind, Full Heart

This has been a mind numbing day for me. An emotional roller coaster that I wasn't sure I'd survive. Thankfully, it had a very happy ending.

I've been feeling down lately. I've had some strange side effects with the medications I'm on, and they've caused some extra health problems, and so I've had to stop taking them, which has been causing the original problems to resurface, etc etc. Buddy Boy has had a hard couple of days. He really wants to eat baby food but we won't give it to him (he's WAY too old) and so he's not eating much at all. Munchkin has really learned how to argue well this week, and I don't know where the attitude has been coming from. So it's been "one of those weeks" I guess. And today was the final straw. I got a parking ticket because our car is registered, but Dad forgot to put the updated sticker on it. Argh!!!! So I've been crying all day, ticked off, etc.

I'm SO far behind on my health homework, it's not even funny. I had two assignments and one quiz due today, and had no idea how I was going to get them done with SEP conferences and everything else going on. Our computer screen keeps turning this sickly shade of yellow, and it gives me horrible headaches, making it very difficult for me to concentrate on the math class I'm taking, and I've been struggling this week to make sense of all the numbers for some reason. I was able to get the assignments done, but I swear my brain is now officially mush. So there's the empty mind part. Enter the full heart:


Yesterday evening our wonderful friends the Manuel's gave us a beautiful, heartfelt, selfless, HUGE gift. They had received vouchers for Disney on Ice this weekend and decided that instead of going themselves, they wanted us to go. I cry every time I think about it, so I can't go into too much detail lol. This is only a week after the very same family provided my aunt with a Jet Blue buddy pass so that she could afford to fly out to Virginia to help my cousin who is in the process of adopting. Could I ever ask for better neighbors, friends, family? No I can't. And YET, I was blessed AGAIN today.


My long lost brother who has a baby boy (my nephew!)(a half brother I've heard about and known about but never met) found me on facebook. We just spent the last 75 minutes talking and talking. I'm so broken hearted for him, because he really knows nothing about my dad's family. He was the result of an affair between my dad and his mom, and so he never had the contact I had with my dad. He was asking me what my dad was like when I was a child, and he kept calling me BIG SISTER...he said it felt so good to have a family to get to know! He didn't even know the story of our grandparents or how old our father is, or anything. It was wonderful being able to share what information I know with him, and my heart is so full after our conversation. I copied the instant messages and pasted them in word so I'll have it always.

Okay, so the point of this huge long blog: Thank the Lord for what you have. Times get tough, brains can be overworked. Our spirits can be overworked. But there are blessings waiting around every corner, if we are but willing to see them. With great trial comes great blessings. Also, family is IMPORTANT. Don't let old grudges, old fights, old issues get in the way of being the best you can be to each and every one of your family members. After all, aren't we ALL family? We are ALL God's children, after all. EVERYONE, no matter how mean, how bitter, how cold, how strange, has their story. And everyone has a valid story. Get to know one another and their stories before making assumptions. The world is full of beautiful, amazing people, but we are all so busy in our personal lives that we forget to see that beauty around us. We truly are all in this together, and I plan on taking advantage of that and paying forward every blessing we've received. As I've said before, WE MUST NOT ALLOW OUR DISCOURAGEMENT TO OUTWEIGH OUR FAITH.

So I will continue to be brain dead until I get this medication issue fixed. But my heart is going to continue to be filled, and I'd rather be brain dead and heart filled than the other way around.

Mom